It is the end...

I am sorry to say that this will be my last post on this blog. I will have two more blogs coming up. One will be about my next two summers, and the other will be about me being an upper classmen. Because guess what? I am offically an 11th grader!! I'm so happy! My exams went fine, my goodbyes took a little while than I thought they would but it was all good.

Now to the juicy stuff, right? You (probably don't) want to know about Tyler coming over for dinner last night, right?
Well, he came around four. And I had made brownies, and gotten his root beer (Tyler is all about his root beer...) and he left at 9:15. Very depressing...
When he came over we pretty much just sat down on the couch, while we talked and stuff... Couldn't do much of anything with three kids running around.. He was getting frustrated over that, but he knew what he was walking into when he came. We had taco's. I had gotten a little frustrated at my mom for a mishap with good cheese... Kind of embarrassing... But I'm not sure if he knew about it... But after dinner we were sitting on the couch, and we had time to breathe, because one little one was with my mom and the other two were with my sister, so we decided to kiss, not that much... Next thing I know, Nick, the youngest, is walking in saying he has to separate us. Then I hear my mom talking to Jarred, the oldest, saying "You can go separate them, too!" I was not happy... Then they started writing notes with our initials in a heart with forever underneath it... Yey... That's not embarrassing... But Tyler didn't see those... Then Nick started to sing "Tyler and (my name) sitting in a tree. K-I-S-S-I-N-G." And I'm just like "Oh dear God... Please stop this..." But when Tyler left, everyone said he was a nice kid, and he played with the kids just fine. He behaved for the most part...
But yesterday was just overall a very good day. Today has been kind of dry... And because it is summer, I should post about today, but I will, because there's not that much. We just went to Judy Moody, and it's my moms birthday. Woo.

When It's Broke It's Perfect

So. I miscalculated this last three post = 50... Because I will have to have 51 post, because tomorrow is my last day of school and I don't want to talk about school on my summer blog... I'm so excited. Even though Tyler won't pick anything to eat! I don't know what we will have... My mom will think of something. He can be so difficult... Yesterday I was asking him to pick something and he said pizza. Then said he didn't care, that I should pick something so I was being a smart ass and asked him how he felt about Liver and Onions. And he said ewe at first, then I was like "then pick something!!" and then he was like "Okay, that's fine." and I was like "I don't like it!!" Then he got mad at me for not actually picking something. And we were suppose to have chicken and some stuff yesterday, but we had pizza instead, so I wonder if we could have that tomorrow... But we might have it tonight! All I can really think of other than that is fish, but we'd have to get a lot of fish... I don't know. I'm kind of nervous about it... I don't know how the kids will react to Tyler, he says he'll be good, and I know he will, but I just can't help thinking that something bad will happen tomorrow...
But what will be cool, is that what ever happens tomorrow night will be the start of my new blog!!! I'm so happy! I will be a Jr. tomorrow at 11:43 a.m. I'm so excited... And Tyler today actually talked about Homecoming... He didn't even go this year! But I think he will, because of me. Which makes me super happy, because then I won't be the loser without a date anymore!
The perks of having a boyfriend... It's just still really weird how we are together... Just about a month.. <3 Ain't it wonderful???

Today was just kind of whatever. I had my TA exam, took me like 20 minutes to do, then we had to wait until everyone was done, then I went to Tyler's class, the teacher only had a few things for me to do and I did them semi fast. Then Tyler walked me to 4th period... But he hasn't texted me back yet... And I texted him over an hour ago... And he came home at 9:45... Doesn't mean anything, right? I'm just worrying about nothing, I hope...

Actual Excitement???

So, right now I am listening to All Time Low. Best. Band. Ever.
I'm like so freaking happy right now. I just went on Facebook and saw the they posted something about being able to get their new CD on ITunes... I don't have an IPod... So I went on Walmart.com, and found out the release date is today!!!! And so I ran to my sister and asked if she would take me to Wally World. And she said I should just wait until Mother came home... And I was worried that they would be sold out, but my sister still did not want to take me... So, I called my mother, who said that she had to make dinner (which is probably what I will be doing...) so I went back to my sister, who was in a huge mood. But she finally gave in. So, I went into Wally World all excited and happy. And I'm looking at all of the albums... No All Time Low... I asked someone if the release date was today, would the CD be out. They went to the 'New Releases' place, which I did not see, and asked for the name and band, and I told her, and she went to the back. And five minutes she came back out with a brand new CD in her hand saying that I was in luck!!!! I was so happy I swiped my credit card and ran out of Wally World, and then jumped into my sisters car, who was STILL in a horrid mood. And I asked if I could listen to it... She said no... I got depressed, but it is blasting on my radio right now, so I'm happy. And my sister is letting me use her IPod tomorrow, so I will listen to it tomorrow during school!!! =]

Okay, so I thought I wouldn't have anything to post about, but look above ^ so awesome topic. Ha.
So, I went to school, and I got there a little early, so I put down my bag, and went over to the table that Tyler sometimes hangs out with, before I get there, and I sat next to him, and he hugged me and we stayed there the whole morning, and my friend was actually at the other tables, but I didn't go over there, and I'm  kind of happy I didn't because, even though I don't understand his computer talk, I am able to talk to Tyler and be there next to him... It's been almost a month. =] And Angela didn't come and bother us, she was walking past us, he didn't see her, but I did... But she went over to the tables we normally go to... I wonder if she knew we were there...
I'm so happy about us... And I now don't get all worried or worked up about Angela, she's nothing. Plus, two more days of school, then I won't have to deal with her. For two months!!! I'm like so excited about summer, it's actually going to be fun.

So, today I took my Chemistry exam and Journalism exam. Chem was actually very difficult... And Journalism was 50 easy questions... So, tomorrow will be T.A. and English... Tyler will leave early tomorrow, which is kind of a good thing, because after my T.A. exam, I'll go to Tyler's class for the teacher, and he'll walk me to class, and stay with me, hopefully. He probably will... But whatever. I'm just so excited.

Summer is almost here. And I hope Tyler and I hang out after school tomorrow... Crud... Now that I think of it... Angela has 4th period lunch... That means she won't have to go to a class... I don't think she would ask him for a ride home... Right? Ugh... Okay, maybe I am still worrying about her...

Three More Days...

I have three more days of school. And hopefully three more post coming up. I want to land on even '50' post. Don't try to go count, because right now if I look at my home page for blogger it says: "47 post" and I'm like "SOOO CLOSE!!" So, I have purposely not blogging for the past few days, so I can share my last few days of 10th grade year with you. I know, most of you are out of school. And I envy you for that... But I am in school still. It sucks.
Today was the first day of exams. I had my Latin II exam... I pretty much bombed that exam... But today was the last day I will EVER have to deal with Latin!!! I'm so freaking happy!
There's not much I can really talk about... Nothing really happened today...
This weekend I was planning on going rolling skating with Tyler... So, the plan was I was going to go to the beach and then go skating with him when I got home on Saturday... Friday he asked if, after skating, I wanted to go see Pirate of the Caribbean, with his family. And I told him that normally, skating goes a bit late, like opens at 7... And then he was like "Then maybe before skating?" But then I looked up the times for skating, its only open 12-3:30 on Saturdays anyways! Ugh. So, we just went to the movies... Found out how to make out and still watch the movie... So, that was Saturday.
Okay, so there is my moms high school best friend, Scottie B, is staying at our house for the week, and Scottie B is just acting silly, like he's my dad, and talking about Tyler, and asking about him and such. So, I suggested that Tyler should come over for dinner. Tyler actually wants to come over to my house, so he was all over it, and once I told Scottie B about it, he was all over it too.
So, Tyler will meet my moms crazy friends... I really hope this goes well....

Do Voodoo Dolls Work?

So, I sucked it up...
Even though the time I have had with Tyler for the past few weeks, without Angela, was very nice... I finally figured out, blowing up and letting myself get worked up, will not get rid of her. My friend in Chemistry told me I do need to talk about it with him... But there's not much to talk about, right now.. Yesterday morning, I was just sitting at the table with Tyler and a few other guys, of course Tyler and I were kissing and being all couplely... Then I turn around and face the court yard and then I see the worst possible thing that could happen in the morning:
ANGELA heading toward our tables.
I know what you're thinking: "So?"
But trust me it's SO much more than a "So?" It's her butting in on our time. I mean like what the crud? Who does that??? Like I understand when she wants him before and after 1st period, or after 5th period (sometimes...), or even after 6th period. But NOT the times, for example in the mornings, when that had always been the time he would spend with me, not her.
And when she was coming up, I saw her first, and let go of his hand and he was like "Why is she here so early??" and I'm thinking: "Oh, I don't know, maybe because she hates us being together?!?"
She comes up all smiling and shit. (Excuse my language.) I just hate that fake smile of hers... And so he stands up, goes over to where she was for a second, came back over to me, but there was no use in sitting by each other if we aren't able to do anything 'couplely' so we both got up and I went over to my Freshmen, and he went back over to her... And he came over and hugged me, and I looked over at her and she was preoccupied with other guys talking to her, so I went in to kiss Tyler real quick, and he was about to, but then he stopped, looked over at her, then kissed me. And then soon after that he went back over to her.
The ONE good thing about her coming in the morning is Tyler walked me to class, instead of her, which made me like super happy. And then after 1st period she never really came up to us so we actually had time to ourselves, which was a nice change... We talked for most of the time after 5th, and she wasn't anywhere. And after 6th he walked me to class, but then after he had gotten upstairs, he found where she was, so he had to go downstairs for her, he was probably late... But then the sucky thing is: her 7th period is in the same hall as my 8th period, so he was walking down the stairs (going down a different staircase than we normally do.) and like at the last step, he tried to kiss me and I didn't kiss him, and then we got off the stairs and there she was. I was so pissed... But he didn't even stay with her for like 5 minutes. Then I got out of class for the first like 10 minutes of 8th period and went to his hall, because I had to turn in my track uniform, and he waited for me and kissed me then, but only because Jr.'s were having an assembly.

So, onto today...
This morning I got to school a little later than usually. And my friend was there, today being Thursday and all, and so I go and poke Tyler, because he was sitting down and looking the opposite direction, and then hugged my friend, then started to talk to her and this kid and said I had to go to my teachers classroom. and Tyler gets up and hugs me from behind and was like "Where were you?" and I look at him along with the people that I was with. And I was like "What do you mean?" and he was like "Where did you go?" and the kid there was like "She just got here?" then I told Tyler that I would be right back, and he was like "Okay, let's go." And my friend had already said that she would go with me. So like we start walking, which at that point, I wish that it was just Tyler and I going, because she was just looking at me like "Why is he here??" and I'm just thinking that it's whatever if he's there, he's my boyfriend, he can be there. And we get up there then when we were about to go back downstairs, and then he stop in front of me and I was in the middle of talking to my friend, and so I didn't kiss him when he went in for a kiss. And he was like "What?" and I said nothing and held his hand, then we went down the stairs, and he went went the other way... So, he had gotten mad at me, because I didn't kiss him... The reason why I didn't kiss him is because my friend is a major Jesus freak. And PDA is a sin in her eyes, plus I was in the middle of talking to her. He went to a different table... And then guess who showed up a little later? Angela. Yey.  I was just so happy to see her. Just standing there, he wasn't even really talking to her, but she was just standing there right next to him. And then he came back to where we were and got his stuff, and he was going back to the other table, and I gave him a quick kiss, and he went back to her... But then after the bell rang, he came back and walked me to class. So, it turned out all okay... Then he didn't walk with her after 5th at all, and then after 6th he was mostly with me, until like a second before the bell rang then he went to her... Then after 1st, it sucked because she came up the stairs, that was like closest to us, so I only got to see him for like 3 seconds. But after 7th he normally walks with her, and we were going down the stairs holding hands and such and there she was, so I let go, then we went down the stairs, and we kissed, but then she was gone, or he saw her and didn't go to her... So, I had him to myself during that break, which made me happy. =]

Oh. And about the title... I went to the mall with Tyler and went to Hot Topic, and they had Voodoo dolls, so I bought one, I wonder who I should test it on...

OH. And by the way: Angela told Henry about me and Tyler. Not that it really matters, but she was expecting him to talk shit about me, but he didn't. He said the normal "When it's over I'll be here." Yada yada yada. Doesn't matter, I won't be wanting him to wait for me. I'm happy that he's not mad at me... But I just wanted to tell you that. See? I know that her smile is fake because of that. I'm so happy Hnery told me...

She's Winning...

So still can't do anything in front of her... Which is so stupid...
So many things people have told me:

1: This is like the dumbest thing I have EVER heard!
2: Dump him, then he'll realize that he messed up then come back to you.
3: Talk to him.
4: Talk to her.
5: Just go up to him, make out with him and flick her off while you are doing it. You will be physically flicking her off and mentally flicking her off at the same time!!

I think I like #5 the best xDD

But with #1, that is what I'M thinking! Who seriously makes rules for someone else's boyfriend??? I mean it's MY boyfriend, and I don't even have rules for him!

With #2... Don't you think THAT is dumb?? Because Tyler isn't going to think to try to win me back, he'll just think that he lost me... And I don't even want to think what would happen  between him and her after that...

With #3... He wouldn't listen... And even if he did... I'm afraid that he'll take HER side... I know that is really horrible to think about... And it is very horrible... And shouldn't he ASK how I feel about this?? Or KNOW how I would feel about this???

With #4... There's a few things I would like to yell at her... But then she would just either play this innocent look or just go crying to Tyler... Then Tyler would be upset with me... Plus then he would have to comfort her.... Which would suck majorly...

With #5... Like I said before, LOVE this idea... But I stay away from both of them together and she stays away from us when we're together. Which I like to do... And I doubt if I tried to even go in for a kiss with him he wouldn't kiss back... So it would just be embarrassing for me.



But she's getting what she wants. She tearing me from him practically, because he has to 'split our time together.' Which is stupid... But I just have to deal with it for another week.. Then it's exams, then it's all over. And he's mine for the summer. At least we won't have to worry about any 'rules' then...

8 more days... That's all it takes for freedom... With my boyfriend... Weird much?

Really...?

So, guess what? Angela's back home! YEY! She was in Italy for like 2 and 1/2 weeks.
Guess what? She was NOT missed by me.
Guess what? So, this morning we are going to my class, and Tyler was like "Oh, could we lay off the couple stuff when Angela is around?" And I'm like "Okay, sure. Whatever." because I seriously didn't care. I was thinking I wouldn't be around them either way, so no big deal. And then I was thinking... Then I asked.. "But she knows... Right?" And good old Tyler says "... No.... I have to work on that..." And I'm thinking "It doesn't matter, because I haven't told Henry, so I'm just as guilty, so I didn't make a big deal out of it. Plus it's not that big of a deal..." And then after 5th period, Tyler was talking and said "So, I told Angela about us..." And I was like, "Okay? What she say?" And then he was like "Well, nothing yet, she hasn't texted back..." And I was like "Really?" and he didn't understand why I would think that would be bad. Then I then found out after 6th period that she wanted Tyler back... What the heck?!?! SHE dumped HIM because she's a freaking Mormon! Mormons can't date NON-Mormans. Tyler's a BAPTIST. Which is NOT  a Mormon. And after dating him for a year, said she didn't want to hide it anymore, so they were over. Who does that?!?! Who dates someone for a YEAR then decides: Oh, yea, I can't lie to my parents anymore. It's already been a year, if you like him, either fight for him, or keep dating him, it's been working out so far.
But then again, I can't really complain about her dumping him, because if she hadn't then we wouldn't really be...
Now, all I know, is that we can't do anything couply around her... But I didn't want to either way... But the thing is... This means she doesn't approve of us dating... But we're still dating... So, is this good?
And I talked to Tyler about Angela.. And if he likes her still. Well, I actually asked it he was truly over her... And he made this face, which really did make me believe him more... And he was like "Yea, I had to get over her. That's why she broke up with me when she did..."
So, he told me he was over her. And then he practically just turned down Angela for me... That's a good thing right? Why am I even questioning it.. Of course it is... So, she's just really upsetting me.. I mean, who does that? Really?

Guy: Hey, me and this girl are dating.
Girl: But I want you back!
Guy: But you broke up with me like forever ago...?
Girl: But this trip to Italy has made me recognize how much I truly love you and want you back!
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Me: Are you kidding me?