So… Monday was okay nothing really happened at school, but Tyler told me after school that Angela gave us ‘permission’ to repeat Friday. Which really confused me, because why would his EX-girlfriend, who broke up with HIM, need to give US permission to date? So I reply to that was “I’m not giving her permission to hang all around Bobbie!” Not meaning what it looks like… Because I know I’m over Bobbie, thanks to Tyler… And Tyler took it as if I still like Bobbie from that and was like “No wonder you have been distant lately. Make up your damn mind, I’m losing mine.” Which he has now told me three times… But after fighting over HER pretty much, he said “Well, let’s just forget that Friday even happened, would that be easier for you?” And I, being STUPID, said “It actually would…” And then he got mad at THAT. Because I gave up too easily, so we stopped talking pretty much.
And I thought he would at least talk to me like he would on a normal day on Tuesday, but he didn’t… And he wore this plaid shirt that he asked me my opinion for during the break… And I was going to go up to him and say something about it, but my friend was at the tables Tuesday, and we were talking the entire time. But when I went to go and T.A. for his 7th period, and he didn’t even look at me… And I tried not to look at him… It was as if we were never friends… And that wasn’t what I wanted… So after school I texted him and said “I didn’t want you to forget that we ever were friends…” That’s when he told me that Angela was giving more like an approval than permission… And as his ‘best friend’ not his ‘ex-girlfriend’… which is his fault for not explaining that to me, because he thought that was good news when he told me that she gave permission, I didn’t think so much of it… And he actually admitted that he liked me. Like before he wouldn’t say it but Tuesday he actually said it, and he’s said it a couple of times so far… Which makes me happy…
That leads us to Wednesday, which I guess I liked a lot more than I realized, because Tyler could even tell that I was happy to be next to him… In the morning I sat next to one of my friends and Tyler was away talking to some of the guys, so I was talking to this girl, Alex, and then Tyler came up and put his arm on my head, and I grabbed it and took it off… Then, with a guy sitting next to me on a two person seat, he sat next to me, and we were just messing around, and he was playing with something and I was like “Are you having fun?” And he said “No, but this occupies my hands.” And so I just stayed silent for a second and he said “Is there something else I could do?” And I was like “No…” But I know he was talking about holding hands… And for a moment he flipped over his hand and his ring, I guess I just saw things, look like it was open on one side, but the class ring is supposed to be closed, so I flipped over his hand to look at it (which he probably thought I was just going to put my hand in his after flipping it over, which I’ve only really made the first move with Bobbie…), but it was fully closed and he was confused because I put back his hand and he looked at me and he was just messing with me, and he hugged me a lot… But like a minute or two later after I looked at the ring, he put it on my lap, and I put it on, and he just was laughing, because I said I stole it and he was like “I saw”. Then I found out he has a tan line from where his ring is…And he grabbed for the ring and I didn’t let him get it… I was planning on keeping it for the day, but then decided against it, and gave it back to him… My little freshman was like “Why’d you give it back??” But she didn’t know that he reached for it…
Thursday was a good day too, and I had a cute outfit on, heels with a skirt, because there was a yearbook meeting, and I thought I would have had to dress nice for it, but I didn’t have to. So I got to school a little earlier than normal and I sat down at our table because I had a good 5 minutes to spare and this guy comes up, he is a friend of mine who usually sits at that table, and we start talking then he warns me that Tyler was coming up behind me, and I don’t even know what he did… But he did something to try to scare me. And then I told him I had to leave early, right after I ask Alex for her lotion. And he looked sad and asked why and I told him, so before Alex came he was hugging me and such… Then I found out that Alex didn’t have any lotion, which saddened me. So I left to go upstairs for the meeting. My shoe broke as I got up… It sucked so I glued it back together, which held it for the most part. So, I saw Tyler before 5th period and he was like “How was the yearbook meeting?” and I said boring, then I said that I found out if I sell $400 worth of ads (which I have to do for a grade anyways) I get a free yearbook! How wonderful, right?? And he was pretending to me excited for me and was like “That’s awesome!” and I glared at him. And then he was like “Well, that’s going to be hard for you.” And I’m like “What’s that supposed to mean??” And so he insulted me, and then made me hug him, and I hugged him so tight I cracked his neck, but then he said it felt good, but I still feel bad about it. But he actually walked me to my class, which he hasn’t done in a while… And then waited outside, which I did not expect, but we didn’t talk much then… But then I went into T.A. for 7th period, and my friend, Lane, wasn’t there (Tyler doesn’t like Lane because I talk to Lane in that class more than I talk to Tyler.) And so I was just sitting up front and Tyler comes up after this freshman comes up and talks to me. And he was just like “You look bored.” And I said “I am! Lane isn’t here!” And he was like “Oh darn…” And then he picked up a paperclip and I looked at him weirdly and was like, “What are you doing?” and he said he was planning to bomb the school or something and then we start to talk about other things, and we were actually kind of holding hands even when the freshman came back and started to talk to me. When she left he threw the paperclip down my shirt! Which was tucked into my skirt. And I’m like “TYLER!!!!” And he’s cracking up and I’m like freaking out on how to get this thing out of my bra without looking weird. So I got up from my seat and made it fall out from my skirt. After it fell out I picked it up and threw it away, and he was like “Yeah, throw it away!” and I’m like whatever, and I pretending to be all mad at him, and he’s like “I’m sorry do you want a hug?” and I look at him and I’m like “No!” and I turned to face away from him and he hugged me anyways and there was these two girls who turned around and just started to stare at us. And I turn to face him again, and he’s still cracking up. And then he was like “Are you sure you don’t want a hug?” And I’m like “Yes, I’m sure.” And he holds out his arms and I shake my head and he puts my hands over his shoulders, like he normally does when I refuse to hug him, and then he went in for a hug, and I put done my hands so he couldn’t hug me. It was so funny! And so was his face he was like “You’re so mean!” and I’m like “You’re one to talk.” And we just kept talking and he has this thing with trying to mess with me so he grabs my nose… And it’s the weirdest thing… So I bother him by poking him, because he jumps every single time. And I would like turn away from him when he would go for my nose, or I would grab his hand, and then we would just end up holding hands, because he wouldn’t let go...
Friday! Friday morning Tyler came up and was talking to me, and he asked for a hug, and I said no, and he was like “Why not?” and I told him I was still made at him about the paperclip and he just started to crack up again… He was so proud of that stupid thing… And he was like “You know that was hilarious.” And I was like “No it wasn’t!!!” And he was just laughing, then he gave me a hug and I hugged him back and he was like “I thought you weren’t going to give me a hug…” and I was just laughing and said “Shut up…” and he laughed… And then his APUSH exam was Friday, so he was like “Well, I don’t know if I should go to so-and-so’s room to study…” and I didn’t say anything, because I had to go and meet Henry to give him money for this poetry jam, for my friends’ ticket. And he got mad and was like “Ugh, you don’t even care.” So when he grabbed his jacket to leave I grabbed my bag and went to where Henry said he hangs out in the morning, but he wasn’t there, so I went to my locker instead, then went back downstairs to talk to Alex. Tyler came BACK. While I was talking to Alex about her boy problems, and Tyler just stood there next to me and listened to her, when I was trying to get away so we could talk, Tyler and I. But she would not stop talking, and I don’t know what to tell her, I doubt he really wants to date her if he wasn’t gone for her yet. But whatever. So last night we were talking, Tyler and I, and we got on the conversation that I don’t care about something, and then we got to the point that we dropped it. Then I asked how he thing he did on his exam, and he said his teachers stupid, and I said I know that’s what you think, but teaching yourself enough to pass the test? And he thinks so, so I said congrats and then he was like “Sure…” And I said “Ugh… Why not?” and he said ”Because you don’t really care, provided you don’t already hope I fail.” And I said “Why would I want you to fail?? I wouldn’t waste a hope on that!” then he came back with “Because you hate me.” And all I could think was “really? This again???” but I said “Yes. I hate you, Tyler.” Then he said “Hah! I knew it.” And I was just like “Mhm.” Then he said I was mean! And I’m thinking “WHAT? You are calling ME mean? When you always think I hate you???” but I said “Yep. I’m just such a horrible person.” Then he said “Why are you so mean to me?” and I said “I thought it was obvious. I hate you, remember?” then he was like “Why do I hang out with you?!?!” and I said “I have no idea, because you hate me too.” And then he said that I knew that wasn’t true. And I said the same thing back at him. Then he was like “I can never tell what you’re feeling.” And I didn’t really know how to respond so I said “Of course you wouldn’t…” then he said “Hey, you suppress your emotions and very little leaks through your face… Except for that one time…” and I asked what one time..? and he said “That time earlier this week… We sat next to each other on the lunchroom patio… I’ve never seen you smile so much before…” and I think he was talking about Wednesday… Because that was the only day I was like super happy about him… And then I got all quiet then he asked why a million times, and I didn’t tell him what I was thinking so he got mad and said good night. Yey! More Tyler fights... =[
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