My stomach is in one large knot...

I don't know why it is in a knot... But I feel like I want to puke. And I believe it is because I am thinking of Tyler and Bobbie... And how they are both in love with the same stupid girl and that girl is so not me... I just want to go into a corner and cry my eyes out, but I bet if I did that no tears will come out.

I haven’t texted Tyler ever since Monday, so that’s 4 days... Usually he caves in by now and texts me, but I guess studying for the exams have kind of taking his texting me time away from him... But he usually texts me... I will be surprised if he doesn't text me by tomorrow... I just hope that he will text me before the for day weekend is up... Maybe he'll ask to hang out... He's kind of fun to hang out with when it's just the two of us... But around others he's a bit different... And also I keep on having this image come back to my head. I have no idea why... But we hung out one night... Halloween... And when it was really, just us waiting for my ride to come pick me up we were just talking and such and we are like in the road... And he takes my hands and puts them onto his shoulders... If you read my last blog, that what I mean when I say it feels like he’s going to kiss me... And he pulled me in and hugged me... Stupid hugs... But I didn't know what he was doing... And whenever we went to the movies the other weekend, I really didn't want to see that movie, and he would keep on checking up on me (he IS in the seat right next to mine.) and saying "Is it that bad?" or "Do you like it?" then I would answer and he would smile because he knew that I was kind of enjoying being there... And then he would put his head on my shoulder.. Something I would do to my BOYFRIEND... If I went to the movies with my boyfriend, then I would lay my head on his shoulder and watch the movie. I was so comfortable there... Safe... I did that with Bobbie on our last movie together... And he held my hand and... GETTING OFF TRACK. Sorry! Then my friend, who I can trust with my life and almost everything else, asked me if Tyler putting his head on my shoulder good or bad... And I don't know... I just thought it was weird... But I don't know.