So, right now I feel like I should really write... But I don't know what to talk about...
Like you really want to hear about how kissing Tyler is totally less awkward now. Or how we got yelled at for PDA this morning... Or how our 7th period, will not stop talking about how Tyler and I are together... But then again, everyone saw it coming. I would put how my week has been going by, which I might just do, but it's only Wednesday... But it seems like a lot has happened...
Monday I was just way too scared to kiss Tyler and after 4th period he walked me to class and right before going inside the class, and we were holding hands and like inched away from him, and he like, pulled me in for a kiss, and it was fine. So not as weird as it should have been. I got my tickets from Henry... But I avoided meeting him when I had time that I would spend with Tyler... I have to tell Henry soon about Tyler, but I don't want to hurt his feelings...
Tuesday I see him after 4th period, and he comes out of his classroom, because he told me to wait for him. Then when he came out he kissed me right when he saw me. I was just really shocked... And then I kissed him goodbye a little later, then he came up and walked upstairs with me after 5th and my friend, Jenni, wasn't there, and I really didn't want to leave to go to where I knew she was... Plus she was in a mood. So, I just stood there with Tyler, and then when he had to go I kissed him goodbye, and started walking toward Jenni. She had listened to the full preview for All Time Low. So, she was like super happy... And I saw Tyler after 7th and had a bad kiss goodbye... Just really weird... And during 3rd period, I had this girl that I don't like talking to me, telling me I hug Tyler way too long, apparently she hasn't seen us kissing, which is a good thing. But then she was like "So, how does Henry feel about this?" And I got like really quiet and now I feel like a slut for not telling Henry... But how am I supposed to tell him?? I need help on that, so if anyone wants to offer advice, I'm all ears... And I went to Japanese Steak House at the mall with some people, and walked around the mall afterwards, I'm hopefully going to the mall with Tyler this weekend.. Angela's in Italy and she posted on Tyler’s wall that she missed him... Ugh... But it doesn't really matter, right? Tyler's mine and he would never cheat on me... I hope... And also we were texting after school, and I said something about how my dad will not allow me to have a tattoo. And he was like "You're not seriously thinking of getting one right?" and I was like "Why not, and I also want a belly ring, but I have to wait until I'm 18 to get both of them, so whatever." and his response was: "... If you get either one of those, I will break up with you... Just fair warning..." I'm thinking: 'Wow... Really?' And I turn 18 during my senior year, his freshmen year of college. So I said "Well, you'll be off to college anyways, so it won't matter...” and he said "So you intend to ditch me after I leave for college? Nice to know." and I said "No. I'm thinking the other way around." And he said no. Then I found out that all of his 3 relationships, he was dumped. Great... And he didn't know that I have had relationships between him and Bobbie, until I told him. I'm not like a complete loser... They just never were really serious... Like I hope this one turns out to be... And it's not like I hope our relationship doesn't just last 6 months, but I'm not putting all of my hopes into it lasting so long.. But who knows, maybe it will... Maybe it's really just meant to be. Maybe he will choose not to go to that stupid college in New York and stay down here for me... Maybe we will end up dating for more than a year... Maybe. But maybe not.
Today, as of it being Wednesday. was pretty good... I came up to Tyler and hugged him in the morning, and he had turned around and kissed me... And then we sat down, and he had his arm around my waist and we were holding hands, then I turned around to talk to this kid, and Tyler had his head on my shoulder, his face to mine... It's really not as awkward as it sounds... And this lady yelled at us for PDA. Really? It's not even like we were kissing... And I saw that she was yelling at us so I kind of moved away from him, and then she was telling him to take his arm completely off of me... So, he did... And we sat there... In complete awkwardness silence... Then the bell rang and we went to class, while walking there I happened to see like five couples making out. No one yells at them... And he kissed me goodbye and I went to class, he did the same... And I realized I don't think I close my eyes when I kiss, because I'm to focused on trying not to mess it up... So I have to work on just trusting myself... But I think I will look retarded if I have my eyes closed, but it's not like I have my eyes wide open and we are looking at each other while we are kissing or anything like that... And so during 3rd period, we had a highlighting assignment and I asked this girl, Kris, to borrow her highlighter, and she gave it to me and I asked this guy John to give the marker back to Kris, but he gave it to Chris, a guy, and I was like "No, not THAT Chris." And Chris, thinking I wanted it threw it at me, without me seeing it, and it hit me in the face. It hurt. And so after 4th period, I was outside of the classroom talking to Tyler and I told him what happened. And he like caressed my face and was like "Aww..." and he's like CRACKING up about my pain! And saying "I'm sorry." but he's still laughing. And I put my hand on his arm that he has up, and I was like "No you're not! You're laughing!" And he just kept laughing and then kissed me... I swear it was the perfect moment... I wish THAT was the first time we kissed. But it wasn't, oh well. Then we talked some more than he kissed me goodbye.
=] He gives me a lot of kisses xD Which makes me happy, because they aren’t awkward anymore...
I'm just so happy right now... So everything you didn't want to hear, you read anyways... Well, who cares? It's my blog.
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